Love is a word that is known by all. Love can be for a special someone, a pet, or even down to a piece of food. Trust me there are plenty of things that I love that are food!! This girl loves to eat. lol Okay, time to move on to the bigger picture. Love is a weird thing. I have never found love, and I believe it is real. I am going to discuss how my life is affected by it, and maybe, just maybe you feel the same way too! My last relationship I was in was not ideal to say the least. I’m not going to get into everything, but all I’m going to say is that I lost myself during it. This might make sense to some, but maybe not to others. I lost who I was by not knowing what I wanted, just what my ex and everyone else wanted. I was worried I might not be good enough so I would keep my mouth shut, and agreed to everything. Piece by piece myself went away. I never noticed this until after we broke up.

In life you might feel like everyone is so great and you don’t want to disagree with them, because you are scared that you will be looked down on. You deserve to have your own opinions and not just sit there and agree with everything. Love is something that everyone has in their heart. If someone doesn’t like you for being your own unique self then that is not love. I decided it is not fair to me or anyone else, to start dating before I found out who I was, and what I wanted. I took the time to focus on myself. It took awhile but I finally started to decide what I was going to do with my life, and what I did not want for my life. I started to become more and more hard-headed. If someone would ask me out I would turn them down because I had my dreams and passions, and a dating just seemed to get in the way. Now I am at a point in my life where I decided I don’t care if I ever marry. No that doesn’t mean I am giving up on love. I’m just saying I feel strong enough to take care of myself, and I like being able to do that without having to worry about someone loving me and taking care of me. It is going to take a pretty amazing person to make me decided to go on a date with them.

I’m dating with purpose now. What that means is I’m only dating people who I feel like I have a strong connection with and could possibly marry. Yes, that is pretty crazy sounding, but I believe that my life is where I want it, and I’m past the stage of dating because everyone else is. I would rather focus on my life goals, and if God decides there is someone for my life he will make a way for that person to be in my life. It will take a pretty amazing person to make me give them a chance, especially to marry them. God bless that poor man because I’m a determined, hardworking, and hard-headed person.

This is what love is all about. Love is working hard. Love is forgiving EVERYONE no matter what happened in the past. Love is never giving up. Love is making a way no matter the challenge. Love is praying for a way.  Love is starting with yourself first. Love is putting others before yourself. Love is everywhere. Love is something you should never give upon because everyone is capable of it. Love is waiting. Long story short love is a complicated thing. In life there will be challenges. Focus on staying true to yourself, and never give up. It is ok if you don’t want to be like everyone else!! It is ok if you are democratic in a republican state. It is ok if you are a republican in a democratic state. It is ok to be a size 0 or even a size 16. It is ok to be afraid, but it is not ok to give up on yourself, and love. Love doesn’t have to be about a boyfriend or girlfriend. Love is about being happy. So please don’t give up that easy! I believe in everyone of you!

To Love, Laughter, and Happily Ever After. ❤



Personality, and Style.


I know two post in one day. What is this world coming to? I hope you are not getting tired of me that quick. lol  So I went to the movies and saw Taken 3, and it was amazing. It was my favorite one out of the three. Ok, now that we got that out of the way I will get back to what I was saying. When we were driving home I was flipping through the radio stations like I always do and I found the song, “Paint it black” by Rolling Stones, then the song after that was, “Lightening Crashes” by Live. next thing I knew, ‘Sabotage” by the Beastie Boys was on.

The point is I was having a major freak out because those are some of my favorite songs!! I started thinking when the song ended that I have a wide range of taste in everything from books, to movies, to clothes, to music, and to art. I never really thought about it but I really do like a little mix of everything. Then I started thinking about all of the different stores around and how much they changed. I remember when Hot Topic was not a store that the “cool popular kids” never went into much. It was a place that a little bit more edgy not as popular kids loved. In this generation Hot Topic is the place where people get their Harry Potter, Fault In Our Stars, and Doctor Who stuff.

That store shouldn’t classify you as any kind of person. No one should have to be classified as emo, goth, popular, jock, prep, hippie, or any other term due to the fact they shop at a particular store or dress a particular way!! If that was the case I don’t know what I would be classified as because I dress so many different ways. One day I would so be a girly girl with an extremely fancy outfit, hair done up, and pageant makeup, and another day look like I am one of the guys heading out to a football game. This is what makes me, well, me.

I like a mixture of everything because everything intrigues me. This is like a big sign that flashes saying, “look at this weirdo!” That sign can flash as much as it wants, because that is what makes me happy. I will go on being an old unique soul, because that is how I like it. The point is if you like to dress a particular way, or listen to a particular type of music then go do it!! Never wait to gain permission to be who you want to be, because it is your life that you are living. Don’t let someone else live your life for you.

To Love, Laughter, and Happily Ever After. ❤